While thinking about the word ‘emotion(s)’, I look at my life and say “what an interesting life you have live”.
Those who know me can tell you the number of times I have showcased my emotions, in particular tears.
Some people who get to know me think am emotionless, and I often ask myself the following questions:
– Is it because these people don’t see me cry? Or
– Is it because they don’t really know the person I am?
As time passes, we all evolve as individuals, grow and mature into being human beings.
As a 20 something year old lady, I could count the number of times I have cried in public. By public, I mean in the midst of one or more people.
My tears rarely come out in public but rather in private, that is in the comfort of my home.
I will often cry in public only when something really hurts me and goes right into my bones.
A friend of mine recently told me that she has never seen me filled with emotions and wonders how i behave when i am in love. Hahahahah, I told her to closely watch me and really get to know me.
Just like some individuals, I would like to experience tears of joy, sadness at anytime and get to explore my emotions in the moment. However, I have come to understand that people are different and as a result experience life differently.
Often than not, showing emotions in public makes us feel vulnerable and weak and as a result often identified as weird. As a result, i practiced and developed resilience over the years to protect myself.
Till next time,